30日语录

看到这片蔚蓝的天空，这正是我梦想在此翱翔的一片天。我希望我能有这么美好的未来。

有感而发，一向都是我的风格。^^

今晚其实心情很平稳，让自己不愉快的事没有在今天发生。感觉还不错 =）

我今天生了场大病，其实还蛮严重的。我今早起床后竟出不了声。天哪！吓死我了啦！》《

我今天旷课了英文节，还蛮内疚的，因为还蛮多天没去上课了。但是我还是乖乖好学生哦 ^^

今天上了最后一堂Physics Lab 2 的课，我好开心啊！！！！因为我终于不用看到我讨厌的景象！！！！真是天大的喜事啊=D 然后Calculus 真的要加油了哦，不能再偷懒了。

我的怜悯之心，一向都比其他人来得快。

我看不惯打抱不平的事，但是我很多次都没有表现出来。其实为此我感到有些羞耻。我无法做出我心里面想要做的事，其实很多很多，很多很多的事，我都是有心无力。

我无法为朋友所遭遇到的不快之事而伸出援手，对不起，真的很对不起！

希望会得到你的原谅，就算你不懂也好，不介意也好。

很想知道，其实在这世界上，到底有多少人是可以为别人真心地伸出援手。在这五花八门的大染缸里，到底是否存在着我们所谓的好人呢？

纵使以前我失败过，受伤过，甚至被背叛过，

但我坚信，我会遇到个好人的。

就像我所上载的照片一样，等待我的将会是更好的。^^

人生未必只有开玩笑。

开玩笑有时候可以是致命伤。

一连几天离开了他们一段时间，我做了很多事，看到了很多人，走了很多路，也想了很多事。有时候未必是伤感才能笔下成章，感性时也能表达很多不一样的事。最近又去了新加坡，那里真是别具一格。很多新颖的事物层出不穷。

我爱上了凝视。凝视可以使事物变得更好看，更夺目。

回来后，又见回所有朋友，感觉还是那么的微妙。微妙之处在于凝视其中的变化。我喜欢一览其中的变化，就算再渺小，都值得静下心来，好好地去观其变化。朋友，很奇特的一种人；朋友们的心，奇特得更加耐人寻味。

我看到了一些极度渺小的变化。不要说我挑剔，我只是比常人更加喜欢研究事物的变化。我看到他们俩关系变好了，应该是变得更好了。心里面的很不是滋味，一向来都不容易让人晓得。还有就是，竟然一向以来彬彬有礼的Raydon大哥终于发飙了！眼见他所写的肺腑之言，可见得他可是受到了伤害。原来开玩笑遇上认真时，就是意味着世界大战的莅临。就只能说玩笑有时要选对人来开，不要见人就开，这样只能使所有很简单的事变复杂了。还有，我发现她终于开始帮他说话了，是不是意味着更有深度的事就快要发生了呢。对我而言，这是司空见惯的事。因为这是其中必经的过程，代表着历史即将再次重演。那我就拭目以待，好好地享受历史重演的微妙之处。

心，有了裂缝，尽所能地缝补回去，就是希望不要再次出现破坏它的人。

这样简单的道理，你都还不晓得吗？

我真的越来越不懂我自己。

Sometimes I feel myself very stressful...

曾经记得朋友和我说过，不要太依赖世界上的任何一个人，因为你不懂他们几时离开你身边。如果他们真的离开了，那你自己又能承受得住吗？

Really a best sentence for me. I very dependent on my beloved friends now, especially Suprinda. No matter what, I believe her in every situation, and I want her happy all the way. So I did not regret for my action of forgiving Kam Jia Yi. =D Because I know well, I like Aarun now. ^^

But I did not trust her. The one who act and sound similar to the one that betrayed me last time.Sorry to say that I did not trust you now, because from your every action and respond, you will do the way she did to me last time to me now. Exactly. Feel sorry to say that now..From now on, I only will ask you anything about studies to you. Only in academic. Nothing at all. I will treat you as my friend. Only friend. 

Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT ANYMORE. I REALLY TREAT YOU AS MY BEST FRIEND NOW, BUT YOU REALLY VERY SIMILAR TO THE OLD ONE......

I VERY VERY VERY STRESSED NOW...Is it i should not like him anymore...

别人看不懂、猜不透的泪水

假装说没事，假装多好...

好久没在这里倾诉了，生活实在太忙、太不可思议了。

我外婆在10月26日离开了人世，从此告别了我、我父母、还有这个世界所有的东西。太意想不到的事往往让人不知所措，但这句话对我视乎并不正确。我其实并没有哭得死去活来或者什么的，只是在仪式里偷偷流了几滴泪。是我冷血吗？还是我只是并没有和外婆有多深的感情。也许吧。

我听过，我们生活上其实不应该太依赖任何一个人，因为你永远不知道他什么时候会离开你。其实没错吧。背叛，令我下辈子永远带着戒心去了解她人，因为担心历史重演，担心下一秒所有事情都变了。现在我觉得有这个想法一点都没有坏处，反而让我对生活的改变有了心理准备，让我比任何人都更有想法。我只可以说声对不起，因为我不想再次受伤。有时我宁愿离开的是我，因为我不想看到，不想看到令我心里不舒服的人，还有种种一切。

这些人情世故，早就该在我们的脑海里定了个模子，让我们都知道这些都是可能发生的事。我讨厌我拥有很准确的感觉，因为这种感觉往往令我哭得像个泪人一样，但只能默默地哭泣。这是什么烂东西，为什么我要自己独自哭泣，我不明白，我到底是不是不该喜欢上人。

New Sem Starts...

Week 1 just gone...

It was a wonderful starting point for me to begin a new trimester. Everything remains, God bless me.

Friends still treating me nicely as usual, especially him. I am still hoping everything will not change as time passes. 

The lecturers for every subject very nice. I like the lecturer of Business Management. Her voice is very attracting and her English is very good. Speaking fluently to all of us. I hope that one day I can be like her. Lecturer of Calculus quite good in teaching, but his teaching style is quite boring. Every time I sure will accidentally slept away in his class. x) Hmm for others I had nothing o comment about it because it was very normal for them.

Be honest, I hate the lecturer of Physics Lad 2. Really. INDEED. I not hate the way he teaching us or what. By the way I haven't meet him or see him until now and I don't even know how his face looks like. I just hate him.I really hate him because of his arrangement for grouping! Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!

I don't want that happen! I hate Mondays! I hate every Mondays...

Now I really can't stop myself from loving him. So I will keep it up, and I won't give up no matter what. If anybody else likes him, sorry to say that to that person YOU will be rival. And I won't stop myself from hating YOU. I hope that the YOU will not be my good friends...

I love today. Today is my Papa's birthday! ^^ I will stop myself from thinking any emotional things today =D

Life is just too short to be happy, so be happy everyday ^^

Especially him.

Happy Friday ^^

I had a wonderful time just now.

Just now having Mechanics class, all of us tired like hell and wanna die. =.=

Almost all of us don't even know how to solve the Mechanics questions, I feel like wanna die lah, wanna final le and we still don't know how to do, feel bad indeed.

After having the class, we all planned to go out for chatime session.^^

Wonderful time.All of us finally back to normal already~ Really feel glad to see and feel that moment.

Aarun finally can chat with me normally and won't have any hard feeling. I feel like we cant act naturally like what we did last time but I already feel satisfied with it. ^^ (Although sometimes still having some bad feeling la...), but I hope I can be satisfied with this result.

I wanna go bath le...stop here first.

Everyone, have a nice day. ^^

What a happy and wonderful day~^^

Finally we talk back to each other again...^^

Yesterday after talked to Ms.Kam, Everything go back to the original path...I feel glad and thankful for what I had did yesterday.I met Ms.Kam, and I told him everything, and he went back talk to Aarun...and now finally he smiled and talked back to me again...!!!! ^^

Today I quite tired and fatigue.After trigo test, I went for my on air session. Today is my last on air session with Lemon, Dynamo and Anna in this semester.I felt glad and really grateful for what they had taught me, and I also felt very happy because I can have a good relationship with those seniors in DJ club. Thankful to God for I had in this moment. ^^

Jazz music brings me go to a very relax condition. It's really very leisure when you had free time to relax and listening to jazz music. Such a good moment.

Anyway, today really happy but feel tired after those tiring activities. So I don't wanna write so much...

Tiring but satisfied day ^^

By the way, Aarun happy and stay healthy everyday...=)

Third day of silence...

I miss the time chatting with him...

Wednesday, Precalculus and trigo day...

Today he still don't wanna to bother me, I wonder what I had did wrong, I want to find a solution, I don't want to continue like this...

He seem like angry with me already, but I wonder what i had did to make him angry. I feel myself stupid enough now to cry for nothing. I don't know what should I do in order to make our relationship become better instead of crying.

Please tell me what should I do in order to become like last time...

I don't want lose this friend, this special friend...

Friendship is indeed important to me, instead of love...

The most importantly is, please let me know before you did all this stubborn reaction to me, I stupid enough to cry for you...How stupid am I...

My eyes still in burning condition. I guess it's better like this, if not I will only continue crying for stupid nothing situation. 

These days I quite busy, busy for tests, busy for assignments too.

But I know my heart is still thinking our condition. I hope, I really hope our relation can become better tomorrow. That's my wish.

Today still the same...

I feel unsecure whenever I stay with him now...

Yesterday I had a nightmare, or can say is a dream...

I like that dream, fulfilling my wish, I wish to talk back with him, I wish to call his name naturally like last time...

今天眼睛肿了，严重肿了，应该是昨天哭得太厉害了，真是傻人一个。

我只是希望快点和他和好如初，不要再像现在这样，那么僵，那么尴尬，那么让我难受...

Pisces possess positive thinking ever, so be positive ya girl...

God will leave a hope for you whenever you got desperate, I believe this kind of thinking, I believe everything will be okay once it find out it's way...^^

Anyway Aarun Loh, wish you happy and cheer everyday...

I still hoping we can be friends like last time...This is my wish now. =)

Cheers Yienyien!!!!! ^^

我真的是个傻人。

我感觉自己快要撑不住了。。。

为什么事情会变成这样，我真的很想大哭！我快要崩溃！

为什么每次都要令我拥有或者经历这种白痴的事，他难道就不能正常当我是朋友吗？

其实什么事情都没有表面上地发生，为什么事情的后果却完完全全地发生了？。。。

夜空，满天星辰，伴天眨眼，好不浪漫。

过去，有他在，有他陪着的习惯，已经逝去。那些历历在目的情景，仿佛就发生在昨天。

伤感，莫名其妙的伤感，泪水像缺堤的河水一样泛滥，情不自禁地落下，犹如没有时间限制地徐徐滑下。

我，只是一个很普通的女生，我并不会特异功能，不会把我所有的不开心变走，那为什么你却要让哽咽声每晚伴我入睡。。

如果有天，我情不自禁地在你面前哭泣，希望你狠心点，把我骂醒，让我哭得再大声点，因为这就是你每天对我做的事，我只希望你做得直接和干脆点。

我忍不住，我每次都想要哭，都不懂哭的目的是什么了，就只懂哭。

今晚很沉，所有情绪都涌在了心中，一下不知如何释放，就躲在被窝里哭了。

其实哭很爽，我当下舒服多了，但同时我心里还是会难受，真矛盾。

我，只是很难受，只是很伤心而已。

祝你幸福 ^^

OH MY GOD I THINK I FALL IN LOVE ALREADY...

He is so special until I fall in love with him now...

Basically I don't know why I keep thinking of him now...and I will sad because there will be one week for me that I cant meet him =( arghh Can I post his name here as nobody will know about him here xD

Okay lets talk about yesterday~

There was a good and lovely day for me as I could spend a whole day long with him, I don't know when I can enjoy that moment with him again in the next outing as there will be a lot of girls outing with us next time. Sad case for me =( I don't want that happen but I know I cannot avoid it. I wanna cry already TT

I realized that he got a lot of interest very similar with me, and sometimes I really feel happy with that. Why I keep thinking of him now -_- until I wanna text him 

Haiz why I let myself fall in love at this time as I m not easily to love somebody. I think is because he is so special and different from the other guys. Moreover he is my type, my cup of tea. Wauu I feel so miss him now xD. 

Going to sleep back, I miss him Mr. A^^ 

Bad Feeling attacks me again...

I Hate This Feeling!!!

I know this feeling..very similar like last time...I don't want this kind of bad feeling...i wish i can get rid of it soon...

Exactly the same feeling ...haiz why every time until this climax sure got something unwilling will happen de...

I really don't want this la...I know this well, and I know the solution...but  don't think I can beat it well...

I scare this girl is that devil girl again...at first the had the same attitude...same kind of feeling towards me...

same behaviour as well!...Please, God please don't want let me overcome this kind of obstacles again...I cant do it! I cant face this kind of thing anymore...I just hope to have a wonderful and peaceful uni life...

But i met him...Is it I should let him go? or face this kind of thing again?...I don't want...I know I cant beat it ...Thats too strong to fight with....He, is my type...and she gave me EXACTLY THE SAME FEELING LIKE YC...so what should I do now? HE, just close file??!OTOKE ! how can I let him go as he is my type -_-...maybe I should let this happen naturally?...haizz...LOVE makes me crazy all the way. I could not beat it down as I know LOVE always me attack me then leave me alone ...thats too evil..I really feel so troublesome...

This time, I let it happen naturally, defeat it all the time, get rid of those bad peoples, quietly see thing happen naturally, QUIETLY see it....

If I don't want get hurt like last time, I think the best way is not too close with these 2 peoples...not is her only...I think this is the best way in order to make this peace and calm myself as well.

YIEN YIEN YOU CAN BEAT IT ^^

Blogging help me release my sadness, boredness, as well as toughness...

My Uni Life starts here....

Uni Life in MMU...

Basically I found some new and good friends here...all of them are quite nice and easily to talk to...about the study that part, if it just ignore the mechanics and computing subject, i think everything is quite okay ^^ 

In the class everyday i found something funny and quite pleasing XD hahhaha

I met a guy who basically can say is my type =.= I know i quite sot but it actually a truth kay~~

Hmm...this guy at first he gave me a quite bad impression because of his cool attitude, but now i think he is a nice guy to talk to XD...ehem long time din talk at here so i think i need to talk about this guy here quite a long time hahahhahah^^ Should I say his name here...as my blog here is nobody will see it -_- next time i declare his name here haha~ actually I hope he can be my best friend la because he is really my type ^^ and this is the first time i met my type ---my cup of tea -_-

These days hmm no is not these days...is these few weeks he gave me a lot of good memories == and I will remember it since i really enjoy it hahahhaa  REALLY CANT LET HIM KNOW ...

okay next i met also some nice friends...a guy from Penang who has a great sense of humour , a quite short guy no la actually is taller than me who is from KL...hmm a girl from cheras , another two girls from seremban ~, a nice girl from pahang who is the only girl got car here xD... my beautiful roommate, and a lot of my orientation friends, and also my faculty friends~ahh~~ and also a girl who is a Thai mixed chinese girl~...^^

hahahhahahah how was it -_-

hmm...next time i only post more photos here^^